I told you this blog would be an authentic record. Last week was pure chaos–speed bumps and jolts at every turn. The boys’ brains seemed to be on another planet. It was one of those weeks where I could not get on top of anything and life was spinning a bit to fast without going anywhere. Like many of you in such a time as this, housing and employment are issues soon to come around for more changes and adjustments. I write in indefinites because that is what it is at this time. To rise above ones number one source of stress (mine being lack of plan and order) and let it flow in all its jagged ways is truly to learn dependence upon God and comes to terms with the limits of your own in-born personality.
In Habakkuk 2:1 God first gives voice to the riveting sentiment, “…but the righteous will live by his faith.” Flip back to Isaiah 50: 10-11 where He had spoken, “Who among you fears the LORD and obeys the word of his servant? Let him who walks in the dark, who has no light trust in the name of the LORD and rely on His God. But now, all you who light fires and provide yourselves with flaming torches, go, walk in the light of your fires and of the torches you have set ablaze. This is what you shall receive from my hand; You will lie down in torment.”
We have no torch to hold up–though I admit I go searching often for one. We just have faith in a God who is committed to our story as we are to His.
Back to teaching. Recess is up. Time to tackle verbs, moss, the structure of an essay (on Egypt), and spelling words. One week, or two or three of feeling like the mountain is over-taking you and you not it, does not spell failure.
Don’t fear you can’t seem to hold your torch, it is not what you need anyways…
ANGELA BLYCKER 
You are so right. Perhaps we should more often set up literal, physial memorials. We were in the habit of doing that, but with all the changes lost the practice. We have to remember where we have come, where we are going and the One who leads us all the way… Good to know I am not the only one with such weeks! I think I am on my way to another one…
Angela,
Sounds like you had a week like me!! What wonderful scripture, I needed that.
I have realized that that is why we need foundation to always know why we
do what we do. I have been studying the book of Joshua and they set up a memorial after they crossed the Jordan river-to remember. To remember that we are equipped because He has called us to do this, even though it doesn’t feel like it when things are out of control. I know through it all there is purpose in the chaos and we are stronger because of it.